Fire and Ice

: Fire and Ice

Every word you're saying is a lie
Run away my dear
But every sign will say your heart is dead
Bury all the memories
Cover them with dirt
Where's the love we once had
Our destiny's unsure
Why can't you see what we had
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
Closer to insanity
Buries me alive
Where's the life we once had
It cannot be denied
Why can't you see what we had?
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
You run away
You hide away
To the other side of the universe
Where you're safe from all that hunts you down
But the world has gone
Where you belong
And it feels to late so you're moving on
Can you find your way back home?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
Every word you're saying is a lie



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: oceanus

Say my name
So I will know you're back
You're here again for a while
Oh, let us share
The memories that only we can share
Together

Tell me about
The days before I was born,
How we were as children

You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

We breath the air
Do you remember how you used to touch my hair?
You're not aware
Your hands keep still
You just don't know that I am here

It hurts too much
I pray now that soon you'll release
To where you belong

You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

Please, say my name
Remember who I am
You will find me in the world of yesterday
You drift away again
To far from where I am
When you ask me who I am

Say my name
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

: oceanus

tadi malam
aku memetik lelah
dipelukan ibunda
malam

perlahan nadiku
menjemput alam
mimpi
bertaburan
benderang

ketahuilah bahwa
aku selalu merindukanmu
penuh kekuatan
tadi malam aku bermimpi
engkau memanggilku
dalam merahbata
bersimponi diatas pembaringan panjang
tercecap kenikmatan
saat kupatahkan sayapmu
dan engkau menggelepar
perlahan
mati
ketika bibirmu terbata
menikam jantungku
menggelinjang sukma
"ooohhh... ssssaayaaanggg.....
pleeasee....."

karena aku
mengetahui
semua keinginanmu
"mencecap antahberantah
meruncing
lingkaran busur
menoreh
anak panah
melukai
kenikmatan
"tatapan matamu
menggenapkan
pacuan
menitah pelana
satria berkuda
berguman
simponi
berkotak warna merahmuda
*bukan cinta biasa*"

pertapaan ini
melukis tarian hujan
menggelitik
tubuh kita
bermandi peluh
membasahi
relung
terdalam
tiada manakala
menghentak
nafas memburai
bayangan malam
kian bersolek
didepan cermin
mimpi ini
menjadi
kenyataan

belantara malam memuja
benderang siang
memberangus
tubuh
telanjang
bayangan silam
bercerita
terhentak
mencumbu
cinta keabadian rembulan
Oooohhhh.... Tuhan,
aku melihat cermin
kuambil dari dinding malam
melintasi
perbatasan zamrud khatulistiwa
memacu debu
menderu waktu
terpampang jelas
kunikmati
semua gerakan
rembulan menikmati
setiap
kenikmatan
bercinta
dengan
matahari
Langit merenda
peraduan panjang
abadi




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: oceanus

berjuta tahun menembus abad antahberantah
memujamu tiada bertepi penuh kekuatan makna
cadikmu menikam bait bait menjalur penderitaan
saat satu menjalur melukai tubuhmu bertahta
ketika menjalur dua menetak asa percaya
tiga menjalur kuasa memberangus pertapaan
menulis cerita cahaya menggema bercerita

untuk hamparan kitab usang berjajar kutipan
tersimpan berjuta juta makna belum semua terbaca
peluhmu bersimbah menuai sembilan ufuk timur
tenggelam usang penantian sembilan ufuk barat
aroma malaikat cinta memeluk jiwaku selaksa
bersetubuh wangi Langit menatah purba menggoda
kerinduan menjamahtarian hujan membahana

: oceanus

“You can take my heart for a walk on the beach
You can take my heart for a little trip
You can take my heart very close to your heart
You can take my heart forever if you like”

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: Oceanus

I know you think that
I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if i didn't say it
Well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying
to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

And I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love, and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

And I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love, and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love, and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love, and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love, and always will be



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I want to tell U

: oceanus

When I look into your eyes,
I am nothing but surprised.
Let me into your life and
I will show you that I care.
Like an endless dream
I will always be there.
I have been thinking of you,
And the way you make me feel.
Cause these feelings feel so real,
When my eyes are on you
It's so hard to look away.

... I want to tell you
What's running through my head
But I really want your heart
I don't know what to do
I just want to be with you,
When all I want is you here with me,


batavia
8Nov11

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True love casts out fear

: oceanus

I enjoy it when I'm with you
But the truth is what I really enjoy is not you
It's something that's greater than both you and me
It is something kind of symphony
The orchestra that plays one melody in your presence
But when we apart the orchestra doesn't stop...
When I'm alone, it continues to play...

I do not demand that you make me happy
My happiness does not lie in you
If you were to leave me, I will not feel sorry for myself
Where there is true love there are no demands, no expectations, no dependency
I enjoy your company immensely, but I do not cling...

:surabaya
14 Nov 11

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I adore U

: oceanus

• I adore U

• I'm maybe not romantic I'm maybe not poetic sometimes I'm not that fluent to find those magic words I wish that I could show you my emotion how can I give a notion to use all my attention to say how deeply I adore you I hope you do forgive me on moments when I'm clumpsy the truth is some uncertain when we're about to make love how my jokes they cover my confusion though it's not my intention to tease you with this nonsense you should know how deeply I adore you don't reject me you could hurt me although I seem so silly but it'll hurt me I'm maybe different as you've discovered but I'm getting warm inside whenever you are near me I'm no longer lonely don't ever leave me cause I can't stand the coldless when you are gone

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surabaya:17 November 2011

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merenda lautan

: lautan pilihanmu



bentangan telaga matamu
berdetak gemulai seutas mimpi,
hujan tiga warna
melempar rintik
diatas lautan pilihanmu
ketika napas terpaku satu
lukisan mutiara dasar samuderamu
sabitmu melantun cadik
penuh kosa tersusun
ikatan selimut awan
menatah empat penjuru angin
sutera punggungmu
lantunan buih ombak
diujung sapuan warna meruncing
sepertiga malam mengukir
candi pertapaan tangan
hembusan sang bayu melintasi
jembatan langkah pertapaan
badai menyapu kuas
dihamparan meja bertonggak fajar,
simponi bekisar membuka mata
lipatan tirai ufuk timur

goresan menggenap aroma
parasmu terpekur mimpiku
membentang padang rumput
seribu pintu membuka seribu jendela
gemintang altarmu
sebatas pematang aliran sungai kasih,
dibatas pelangi kupu-kupu
berterbangan mencumbu kembang setaman,
ditungku lukisan dahaga kasih
api semarak perlahan membahana
sepertiga malam mengukir
candi pertapaan tangan
hembusan sang bayu
melintasi jembatan
langkah pertapaan





Batavia:

11:09:11







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"I Want You"

The last time I saw her
Was the night she said goodbye
She said that love's a stranger
And it's sure to pass you by
As she packed up her belongings
She wouldn't look me in the eye
But I could see a tear roll
Off her face
As we both tried so hard
Not to cry she said

I never wanted the stars
I never shot for the moon
I like them right where they are
All I wanted was you
So baby just turn away
Because I can't face the truth
All I'm trying to say
Is all I wanted was you

I tried so hard to remember
Where when how why love went away
I tried to drown myself in pity
But the whiskey kept calling your name

I bought you fancy cars and diamond rings
All the things that money brings
And the servants to paint the sky blue
And I worked so hard seven days a week
And built a fortress for your heart to keep
If I could I'd wrap these words up for you

I never wanted the stars
I never shot for the moon
I like them right where they are
All I wanted was you
So baby just turn away
Because I can't face the truth
All I'm trying to say
Is all I wanted was you

I may have built for you a dreamhouse
But never thought you were alone
I filled the party up with company
But never made our house a home
All I got is my guitar these chords and the truth
All I got is my guitar ... but all I want is you




: 23:57


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Thank you for loving me

It´s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There´s no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
leave the world outside
All I´ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn´t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn´t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky´s a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you´d make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn´t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn´t breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
leave the world outside
All I´ve got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn´t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn´t breathe


Thank you for loving me
When I couldn´t fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn´t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh, for loving me.

RecLaimiNg thE hEarT

: its


It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of
meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk
looking like a fool for love,
for your dream,
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me
what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched
the center of your own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life's
betrayals or have become shriveled
and closed from fear of further pain!

I want to know if you can sit with pain,
mine or your own,
without moving to hide it
or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with JOY,
mine or your own;
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips
of your fingers and
toes without cautioning us
to be careful,

be realistic or to remember
the limitations
of being a human.
It doesn't interest me if the story
you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint
another to be true to yourself;

if you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithful
and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see
beauty everyday even when it is not pretty
and if you can source your life on the edge
of the lake and shout
to the silver of the full moon,

"YES!" It doesn't interest me
where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself and if you trutly
like the company you keep
in the empty moments.




29:04:2009
12:42



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Attack

: about attack


A sucker punch down the middle
The tightening on my left side
I struggle to gain control
And cough blood off to the right
Did I earn this unseen enemy?
That comes from deep within
The attacks they come_unprovoked
I know not how, where or when.
The attacker hides and waits
Like a coward it hides low
It waits until my guard is down
And strikes its gripping blow.
I struggle, gasping air
My lungs they whistle shrill
I struggle to remain calm
The battle goes on still.
For the moment it would seem
That victory is mine,
But wait, there’s to be more yet,
I can feel another sign.
The itching has returned
It lingers deep inside
Cruel soft fingers reach
From where I cannot hide.
It wearies me to have
This thing that I must be
I long to be someone
Without this illness part of me




27:06:2009
06:08



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Night Life

: dreams of light



becomes the very point of me
the insubstantial ground of imagination
makes golden lights in my mind
seeing the sun at night
the moon during high day
a brilliant trinket
wakes me with luminos shouting

what the mind can see
the hand cannot touch
yet inner life
becomes the very point of me




27:06:2009
06:04




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- stereophonics

: ur my star - stereophonics



You fly with angel’s wings
You’ve got my blood in your veins
And your eyes see everything
And they shine like diamond rings
You’re my Sunday,
Make my Monday come alive,
Just like Tuesday you’re a new day,
wakes me up, Wednesday’s raining,
Thursday’s yearning,
Friday nights,
Then it all ends at the weekend,
you’re my star Sometimes,
I cave right in

('Times I cave right in)
But this fight you have to win
(This time we have to win)
And your songs you love
to sing May your dreams
forever live




03:08:2009
19:33



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My Heart Believe in U

: this is just for u

I have found a place I want to be
This place I see is with thee
For in your arms I have felt and seen
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe
A safe haven in your arms just for me
Now I give my heart to thee
For my heart believes in you



31:10:2009
13:50




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goodbye

I don't really want to say goodbye
I don't really want to leave you
But now I have to go away
Stay away from you forever

What we had was something special
Deep down from our hearts
But now I have to go away
And leave you from my heart



13:04:2010
20:39




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